Where to begin? In other words, what do you want the world to know about your life....
To start off, it scares me actually creating this blog, due to the fact that there are alot of people on this earth that can read your own personal thoughts, & I can't say I am usually into that.... but we'll give it shot.
Well, to start off my title of this blog, is not some song or random line, but something that I've been learning and going through this whole year. Literally. This year has taught me, more than I probably wanted to know, then again when the truth comes its pretty confrontational & who desires that anyways? God knew that I would have a hard time handling the truth and so when the walls came tumbling down, God remained to show me that he doesn't just tumble down too. In fact he never changes. He truly was the warrior through the night that pulled through for me lifting me up and telling me that he remains, when nothing else felt like it remained. At the present time I was doing a bible study, that changed my spiritural life, completely. The more I spent time every day doing the bible study, the more God showed how I had put all my satisfactions in all the wrong places. I put it in friendships, a relationship, and family. It was only a matter of time that it became fight after fight, cry after cry, and a whole lot of questions of asking God, "why"? God had been calling out my name the whole time, a very long time- I might add, but I continued to run after other idols.Of course God knew all this would happen as a he knew that a certain Godly woman would happen to give me the bible study at a certain time in my life, as he knew that there was chains I needed to break, as well as he knew that for years I was putting my satisfaction in the flesh and not his word. As I give you this long (maybe exhausting story) the most beautiful thing about the whole thing is how God showed me through his word in Isaiah 61- which just so happened to be one of the last weeks of my bible study, was that he restores the ancient ruins, the places long devasted. That is something so overwhelming and calming at the same time to realize that he has the power to do that. The ironic thing is, I spent a summer in the Middle East a year and a half ago (where my picture is taken) and I was able to visit many ancinet ruins as I was there & now God has showed me he is restoring the ancient ruins in my own life.- wow. Thats powerful.
I wish I could say that I've completely fixed all the things that God has brought to my attention that need to be fixed, but I'm not fully there. It has been a very long journey and God has been with me and will be with me every step of the way. It is a very good feeling to know I am his, and nothing can ever break that.
"My wall, my mighty tower, be my shadow come cover me;
till all my enemies cower, jealous of my King.
Though the day be laced with trouble, be the stone o'er which I stumble,
Straight into the arms and stay where you remain, where you remain"
- "You Remain"- Jennifer Knapp
